Category Archives: Philosophical

Lost in the big city….searching for balance

Hello everyone!  It’s been a long while since I’ve posted, but I’ve been very busy!  I have made my move to NYC and have been spending my time getting settled and beginning this new challenge of working through a frightening DMA degree at the CUNY Graduate Center.  In the past few months I have learned so much about New York life and how the next 5 years of my life will be.  In short, I will be extremely busy for the next 5 years.  I will be constantly working on my skills as an oboist and vocalist while balancing my time with my school studies and also working to support myself.

This leaves little time for much rest and relaxation, let alone something I believe normal people describe as a.. uh, social life. (I’ve heard rumors about such things…) So I’m currently working to figure out the correct balance for me and what will keep me running at full capacity.  In my short years on this planet I have learned that there is a way to balance your life in order to reach your full potential. This situation I’m facing now is one that is definitely going to be a challenge.  At this point in my search for balance I have found that it begins with taking one day at a time, one hour at a time and really one moment at a time.  There are only so many hours in the day and I am only human.  Without proper rest and fuel for my body full functionality does not happen.  I know this is something everyone goes through, yet not all wants to address it.

I have so many things I want to pursue in my life and career and tackling this search for a balance in my life will help me to be successful in the present but also in the rest of my life.  This balance I’m searching for is a definite life-long evolving process and I will continue to update as to how I’m doing with it.

I urge those out there reading this that are just going through motions without a sense of balance to search out your balance.  You will be much happier internally and find that you are able to achieve things you only dreamed of.

I will leave you all with a picture that signals the beginning of my NYC picture scrapbook.  Enjoy and live your life balanced!

– another sopraboist


Endings and Beginnings

As I reach the end of my time in Connecticut I am becoming more and more aware at how intrinsically linked the words end and begin are.  Inevitably as you near the end of something it means the beginning of something else, yet that isn’t always how we view the situation.  As you walk across the stage at graduation you find yourself in the midst of a ceremony titled “Commencement,” a word with a huge double meaning. While it signifies the end of something, possibly something very meaningful to your life, something you may not want to leave or forget, the often forgotten double meaning of the word is that it is the beginning of something.

Lately I’ve been focusing so much on the beginning I’m about to embark on (beginning a DMA, moving to NYC, etc), that I’ve forgotten to bask in the endings I have been bombarded with. Yesterday I had my final lessons with my students and as each lesson was finished it finally began to sink in that I would not see these great kids again.  I am quite sad at that thought.  One student I have been teaching well over a year and am amazed at his progress. The fact that I will not be a part of or witness that progress anymore saddens me.

This celebration of my Connecticut end has been lost in a mist partially because I haven’t had any reason to feel like it was ending.  Sure I finished my degree, but I have chosen not to walk at graduation, and at my new school in New York I will still be studying with the same oboe teacher.  So in a very weird psychological way it’s not an ending, but a continuation. What I’m learning, or more accurately remembering, from all of this is that I need to take the time to smell the roses.  Once these endings are gone, and I’m fully in the beginnings the ending celebration window will have closed.

In short, celebrate every month, every week, every day, and every moment.  They all have endings and beginnings!  That’s that stuff that makes up life, and shouldn’t life be one giant celebration?

-another sopraboist

Happy New Year!

That’s right, Happy New Year! I have been pretty bad at this blogging thing thus far, yet I now vow to be better!

The phrase “Happy New Year” although most often spoken on January 1st or in February for some, is one of my favorite “isms” from a very good friend and mentor. This shocking statement of his has become a regular greeting, even on the hottest of midsummer days. To me it means that everyday, or even every moment is a new beginning, so seize it! What else do you have to lose?

I try to infuse this tactic into my life (it’s not always easy nor am I always successful) yet when I do life is not only more interesting but more fulfilling and certainly without regret for a missed opportunity. Recently so fulfilling for me that this little farm girl from the midwest is moving to “The Big city!”

So go on the rest of this lovely spring season and have a Happy New Year! (I know I will!)

-another sopraboist